Good grief...it's been forever since I have posted. I would love to say that it's because we've been so busy...but the truth is I just forgot. So, I will catch you guys up on the past month. We spent Christmas at the beach with Michael's family and then headed back to MS to have a late Christmas and NYE with my parents. It was a much needed break from pilot training. And yes, I say it like I'm in it too...because I might as well be :) One thing that I've learned (and I promise any other spouse would agree to) is that we're just as much a part of pilot training as anyone else...minus the flying, of course. Speaking of UPT, Michael is right in the middle of Phase 2 now--still flying the T-6. He will stay in this Phase until May. I can't say that I was totally ready for what Phase 2 of pilot training brought to us...but we're still coasting through. Michael has 12h days Monday-Friday (and yes, he is literally there for 12 hours...flying or not flying). So, that's been difficult for both of us...because he is completely worn out when he gets home and still has a million things to do to prepare for the next day. I can finally say that we've gotten into our rhythm and things are much smoother now :)
I think the hardest thing for me has been sitting at home...aka not working. If you know me at all, you know that I just don't do the whole stay at home/house wife thing. So, moving to MS and job searching with no luck was a HUGE let down. And I know what you're thinking, "Oh, it must be so easy...all she has to do is sit at home and cook and clean"....but it's not. I went to school and busted my butt to get my degree and pass boards just to not be able to use it? Lame. You guys know how it is...the break is nice but after 6+ months every single day...BORING. I know I have some friends out there who totally get me! It gets old. I have cried many many tears over this and why God would have me go through being in a new town, away from family and friends, newly married, new to the military...and just let me sit at home all day. Seems pretty stupid, right? I honestly thought I was being set up to fail. Let me say this...every single day that I sat here in self pity about not having a job, I did fail. When I realized that God obviously had more for my life than to sit at home, I actually started to feel better. I learned a lot of patience through this...and I know that there was a reasoning behind the waiting game.
That being said, here's what I learned: Sometimes it's not all about me. (I know you're all rolling your eyes). Being married has been the best and most challenging thing I've ever done. Throwing the military on top of that...and then adding the demands and stress of pilot training...ugh. It's a DAILY battle. I knew that marrying Michael meant that I was also marrying the military. I just didn't understand it until now. One day (after a lot of prayers and frustration) it finally dawned on me that maybe, during that time of being jobless, I really just needed to be a support system for Michael. No, it's not all about him either...but anyone who has gone through UPT will tell you that it's one of the hardest years of their lives...and even tougher if you're married. And if I could make that easier by being here and having dinner ready, washing clothes and keeping the house from falling down...then I was happy to do it. And I actually really mean that.
All that being said....God finally blessed me with the most amazing job, besides being an awesome wife. In February, I will be starting my first nursing job in the CCU (Critical Care Unit...most of you know it as the ICU) at a hospital here in town. It could not be more perfect for me...and is exactly what I wanted! And if you're worried about all the other stuff (cooking, cleaning, clothes) is going to get done...no worries. I'm a pro now :) Ha...just kidding...but we're gonna work it out! God will never give us more than we can handle. I'm completely sure of that. So, I got this :)
I cannot thank you enough for all the prayers during this time. Michael and I are so blessed to be surrounded with family and friends that are such Godly people and are always lifting us up.
Love you guys!
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